my heart from the Timbavati

Aug. 2016

Southern Cross mounted on it’s side.
Open exposure to the stars at night.
Red Willow burns like laughter guides —
bright and warm. So we trail Upright.

Impala herds and Lion prides.
White Rhino trails and Hornbill flights.
Leopard tracks are burned inside
my eyelids as I drift to sleep tonight.

What can I say? My heart feels right.
Timbavati sunsets. “First Star” in sight.
9 hours in the sun tans my hide.
Local rooibos powers our free-range stride.

 


Sept 2016 (Return flight to US from South Africa)

You’re still in yesterday. I’m in tomorrow.
This is not of linear logic to follow.

You’re dwelling in the past.
I’m dreaming of future generations.
You say this joy will pass.
I’m shouting of love within the patience.

Gracious gestures got me grateful.
Godly nectars gulped in fables.
Turn of events, we turn the tables.
Music to my ears — turns out we are able
To unwind the cable of our past and present labels.
To lift the latch and let Our Horses out’ the stable.

 

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inSpired

I’m feeling pretty fresh, yeah I’m feeling pretty stable.
Feeling really blessed, yeah I’m feeling really grateful.

Just as the birds sing early in the morning, they calm at night.
That’s how you excite me. You soothe me; inspire me to be Upright.

I’m inspired by You.
I’m inspired by You.
I’m inspired by Your Light.

As my hands grow calloused, my heart softens.
Choking up thinking ’bout how i don’t do this often.
Or when i think of having children, and into what they could blossom…
I’m just full of awe, and it feels awesome!

I see faces in the trees silhouetted by the moon.
I see myself in others when I open and commune.
I hear an ache in my heart beating to Your tune.
I feel whispers from the future saying the past will come soon
So: Seize the moment. Seize the day. Seize the life. Follow the clues.
Be bold. Be selfless. Be everlasting. Be new… Be you!

I’m inspired by You. I’m inspired by You.
I’m inspired by Your Light.

I’ll see it when I believe it.
…only if I open up; be willing to receive it.
Glory be to those who seek the True eternal teachings.
The lessons come in all shapes and forms — in the way the birds are speaking.
It’s moving me beyond comprehension.
Rooting… it’s reaching.

“Happy Healthy Human” is the prayer and the preaching.
“Upright in my Mind Body Heart” is the mantra I’ve been Keeping.
Gratitude in each step embodied fully in my daydreams.
I will see it when I believe it — only if I open up, be willing to receive it!

I’m inspired by You. I’m inspired by You.
I’m inspired by Your Light.

“Train yourself to let go of that which you fear to lose the most.”
Go on, go face it, ’cause what you focus on surely grows.

Hope & I [Dusty Floor]

hope and i are dear friends
faith and i, we made amends
grace and i, we meet from time to time to explore the depths
patience sits beside, reminds me that there really is no end
i just can’t remember where i start, & where you begin

see i’m not the kind of bird that’s got some broken down wings
i’m not the sort of girl that doesn’t know how to fix things
but there’s a part of me that wants to get ahold of you
a fleeting moment, our lives done changed … i know we are not through

this is not normal. i do not do this.
but something shone through your eyes that i cannot just dismiss.
see i know i lost my marbles, but i could’a sworn your gun was loaded
i saw myself in its reflection, and i kept that duly noted.

i know you meant one thing by that. but i’m talking the bullets of your words.
straight from your heart and fingers, vocalizing your soul to the world.
i am not just a woman. you are not just a man.
and yeah i know i want things that i do not quite yet understand.

and so I tend to sing in metaphor, I don’t often speak directly.
but you can’t look at a girl like that and expect her not to think of you fondly.
Now I lay flat upon a dusty floor where we stood.
I told myself not to say these things, but I know in my heart, I really should ’cause

hope and i are dear friends
faith and i, we made amends
grace and i, go dancing all along the mountainsides.
sometimes late at night when i see some fire light, it’s true
i remember things i felt before…
i think of you.

see i’m not too proud to say that somedays i’m not a saint
more like a sailor, cursing the odds that we can’t just be what we ain’t
but i think of how things, are so much better than they could’ve been
and so i praise the days i still get to say “i love you” to my friends

i recall your obsidian eyes, looking straight into mine when
you sang to me, you sang to me that my eyes they shine real bright.
yeah you & i were born right on down by the riverside.
that’s where i’ll be, barefoot and smiling if you need a little light…’cause

hope and i are dear friends
faith and i, we made amends
grace and i, we learn again not to break when we can bend.
patience sits beside, reminds me that there really is no end
i just can’t remember where i start, & where you begin.

Clay

Time to stop censoring my heart
’cause through He comes It, and from It comes Art.
Time to start sensitizing my heart
to subtle shifts, ridges & cliffs, ‘stead of just fissures when it all cracks apart.

Like clay, I take time to mold. I take time to condition internally.
I’m just about ready to be thrown in the fire. Fuse me. Forge me.

Bring it together. Bring it with honor.
Bring it back to the ways of Grandfather.

Closer to self. Closer to all else.
Close to clearing the dust off my shelves.

Heart in hand.
Tail by tale.
Not separate, but equal,
We Unify on the Trail.

Be. New.

As my hands grow calloused, my heart softens.
Choking up thinking about how i don’t do this often.
Or when i think of children and into what they’ll blossom…
I’m just full of awe, and it feels awesome.
I see faces in the trees silhouetted by the moon.
I see myself in others when I open and commune.
I hear an ache in my heart beating to Your tune.
I feel whispers from the future saying the past will come soon
So,
seize the moment, the day.
Seize the life. Find the clues.
Be bold. Be selfless.
Be everlasting. Be new.

everlasting light…

(rap, written March 2015 to add to Black Keys “Everlasting Light” cover)

Everlasting light, everlasting love.
I want to be near you, to come see you just because.
I see you clearly, like I got different lenses on.
I see you shine bright even through the dusk, to dawn.

No filters on.
Keep it pure.
Keep it simple.
I look at you and now I am seeing triple.

Even on a cloudy day you come and take my breath away
but then you give it back even better than you found it. Hey,

I just wanna say, I love the way your Light shows.
It’s everlasting, I hope it always grows.